Monday, April 29, 2013

BBC RADIO 5 LIVE INTERVIEW WITH MYSELF JAHMENE AND VICTORIA DERBYSHIRE

bbc radio 5 live interview on d.v.myself Jahmene Victoria Derbyshire

one response from this

i eventually got the strength to click on the link & listen to your interview. tears are streaming down my face. God bless you all - you have been through worst degree torment/abuse. i can't even begin to imagine what life was like for you all. i know what it's like to be alone, to be sexually abused, to witness domestic violence, to live every second of your life in fear, to cry yourself to sleep, to be controlled by a monster etc ...
you are all so inspirational now fighting for justice and speaking out about the life you had for so long even though the scars are still there (many unseen). the memories, fear, flashbacks never leave and yes you do wonder why you were put on this earth? what was/is my purpose for being here? what did i ever do to deserve it? i never asked for it to happen nor did i want to witness/experience it - questions we all ask ourselves over and over again.
eventually, if you're one of the lucky ones, you manage to get away from it. you speak out about it to get help & to stop it from happening to others (family members) but the justice system brings you down like a ton of bricks - worse than you ever thought possible. trailed through court cases to relive it all over again; having "it" sitting there staring at you, listening to your every word; swearing under oath and lying through it all. previous convictions hidden from the jury - just so they don't make judgement!!!? one word against the other; no evidence - it was too long ago; sick to the stomach - two trials later he walked away free TO DO IT ALL AGAIN! been in jail for it before but NO that wasn't allowed to come out in court nor was i allowed to let it slip out - now wishing i had of along with so much else. looking back in anger still filled with fury. don't ask me why? but i can't let it go.
threatened every day that if i told anyone he would deny it all & no-one would believe me. "sure you can't go to your mum or dad" he always said! they had a violent relationship and he knew i was too frightened to talk to them so it was easy for him to groom me then move in on me and, of course, i was an extremely quiet shy child.
somehow through the domestic violence, sexual abuse and loneliness i am still here today. i often ask myself why? what has my journey been for? all i want is love for all, world peace, violence & abuse of all sorts to stop and an end to poverty - people dying of starvation every day. it breaks my heart to see it still happen. it seems that this is far too much to wish for?
well, do you keep everything to yourself? do you take the law into your own hands or do you let the law(s) decide? something i still couldn't answer to this day because the law is a law onto itself! IF they do get sentenced sure they haven't a thing to worry about. good behaviour and they're out in no time - to repeat, repeat, repeat ... tougher sentencing is needed and now!
i am a very private person, still a little shy but i hope that sharing this will help someone - even if it's only one person then i will have achieved something.
NEVER BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP BECAUSE YOU WILL BE BELIEVED. YOU WILL BE TALKING TO PEOPLE SPECIALIZED IN WHATEVER YOU ARE GOING THROUGH. THEY KNOW WHO THE LIARS ARE!!!
one thing i will NEVER regret is bringing it out in the open because I WAS BELIEVED STRAIGHT AWAY. i worried many many years in fear of not being believed - please don't be like me.
you can very easily nowadays find helpline numbers on the internet - DON'T BE AFRAID TO PICK UP THE PHONE & GET HELP. you are beautiful and worthy of life.
i am signing Anonymous but hope i have helped someone and if i haven't then i know for sure that Mandy and Jahmene definitely have and will continue to. they have been so inspirational and amazing on their journey/search for freedom and a new life.
thank you to Mandy for tweeting the link to her website and to her wonderful son Jahmene for letting us have the joy to listening to his voice in many ways and on a happy note - he blows the roof off every building he sings in :) he is world class - in my eyes.
peaceoneday
i hope i havent offended or discouraged anyone with this. i'm not great at writing stuff x

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

I HAVE BEEN RAISING AWARENESS ALONG WITH MY SON JAHMENE

TEENAGER CONVICTED OF RAPING 11 YR OLD GIRL IN PARK !!

Opemipo Jaji, 18, facing a life sentence after being found guilty of repeatedly raping the girl for three hours

Opemipo Jaji
Opemipo Jaji, who has been convicted of raping an 11-year-old girl. Photograph: Metropolitan police/PA
An inquiry has been launched after a teenage paedophile was convicted of dragging an 11-year-old girl into a park and repeatedly raping her for three hours while on probation.
Opemipo Jaji, an 18-year-old trainee chef, committed the rape after he had just left his probation officer when he spotted the girl going home from school on a bus last November.
After following her and forcing her into Jubilee Park in Enfield, north London, he attacked the girl, threatening to stab her if she resisted and telling her he would film her and send copies to children at her school and to "everyone you love".
After the rape, he went to a youth centre from which he had been banned as part of a supervision order.
In February 2011, Jaji sexually assaulted and robbed a 12-year-old schoolgirl on a housing estate. He was given a 10-month detention and training order in September 2011, serving five months in custody.
In April last year, he was fined £15 for failing to comply with the order, while a month later he was given a youth supervision order for 18 months for making indecent pictures of young girls.
A Probation Service spokesman said: "Our deepest sympathies are with the victim and their family following this horrific crime. A multi-agency public protection arrangement (Mappa) serious case review into what happened in this case has been launched."
Jaji, who was found guilty at the Old Bailey of rape , is facing a life term when sentenced on 7 June.
He had denied raping the girl, who gave evidence against him in court by videolink, claiming that he had been at a youth club working on a backing track for a song when the attack took place.
"I wrote the song after I heard a girl killed herself from bullying," he told the jury. "I wrote the song hoping things would get better." He said he had been on a bus with the schoolgirl and had picked up her travel pass when it fell to the floor.
Jaji said he went to Jubilee Park later that evening to compose music but left after 10 minutes because he saw police at the gate. Recalling the attack, his victim told jurors he had said he was "this close" to killing her.
She said: "He kept saying, 'Stop moving or I will stab you'. I tried to run away but then he grabbed me when I got to the pavement of the park entrance.
"I kept on saying 'stop' because it was hurting me and he kept saying 'shut up' to me. He was just saying it every time I spoke. When I was on the floor, he said he would film me and send it into my school. I was saying 'get off me, get off me, stop'."
The girl, who had one of her gloves stuffed in her mouth, ran home after she was allowed to dress.
Her parents were distraught when she turned up dirty and dishevelled, the court heard.
They had called police when she failed to arrive home from school by 5.30pm.The child was taken to hospital and underwent an operation.
Rosina Cottage QC, prosecuting, said: "Jaji is interested in little girls and sexual acts with little girls."
He was arrested a few days later after CCTV was examined and his bedroom was searched. A book was found about a little girl being sexually assaulted, along with advertisements for child-care vacancies and a picture of a young girl in Australia.
There was also an article about missing April Jones, the five-year-old Welsh girl thought to have been murdered.
Police believe he was a dangerous paedophile whose offending was escalating.
Detective Chief Inspector Adam Lowe of the Met's Sapphire command, said: "Jaji posed a great danger to young girls and despite the great weight of evidence against him, refused to accept his guilt and forced the victim to give evidence in court. This was a particularly brutal but unusual attack on an innocent 11-year-old schoolgirl who will no doubt continue to suffer the emotional scars of what happened to her for a very long time.
"I would like to take this opportunity to praise the bravery of the victim and her family."
Sarah Maclaren of the Crown Prosecution Service said: "This was a vicious and horrific attack on a young victim.
"As a result of this conviction a dangerous sexual offender has now been brought to justice.
"I would like to thank the 11-year-old victim and her family for their enormous strength and courage in supporting this prosecution."

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Government cut backs on domestic violence hit me where it hurts

everyclick.com womens aid donations

All donations however big or small make all the difference and help in so many ways, from clothing a child ....to saving a life.

The Government make so many cut backs each time there's a new election that refuges are struggling to stay open .In fact many have closed already !

 What does this mean you may ask ?

 The truth is ....it is taking the choices away from those in fear .'Staying' Becomes the only choice as there's nowhere to turn to, to escape to. The choice between life and death in many cases !

Personally I don't think the government have a clue ....or even care about how 'our lives ' are affected by their cut backs, their sentencing their 'justice'?  system. Clearly , it doesn't work.Hasn't for a long time now.Someone with 'real vision' needs to wake up the system and make the changes that NEED to happen.To SAVE lives !!!

I could write a book on experiences , knowledge,stats and what needs to be done.A voice is what we need in the right places. Why we go unheard and swept under the carpet is beyond logical thinking. The government needs to deal with what's real.We need to explain what 'real' means by voicing our experiences.They need to listen and money needs to go in the right places.This 'problem' won't go away.Cut backs will cause deaths and suffering.Human rights were laid down in the acts of law to protect victims.How i see it ....perpertrators abuse the human rights act and use it to their advantage.Victims are always cut back on ,abused and treated worse than the perpertrator.Just this section of this subject is raw and real and needs to change.So many things need to change. We need united voice.Domestic violence is a serious subject and clearly does not get the right amount of advertising .Other charities get a lot more voice on air. Why does the government not take this seriously and fund it properly ? maybe we need to do a global questionaire on this subject to see how each country deals with it.


 http://www.everyclick.com/mandy-thomas/info

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Simplistic in my wants and needs


 
Vulgar words spill and fill
this corrupted world
in which  I must abide.
Confined.
My tortured soul,
 so longs a rest.
As each night does speed
and fails each test.
Burdens, woes and sorrow, shakes
my very bones with weights,  ache
transparent bodies,fake
of lies and hate
bounce off the walls
 of the world I hate
This alien place
 to which I cannot relate
I beg a separation
 from this sensless state
Tablet transition
takes a trip too late.
Demons have demanded
my demise, my fate.
Burnt and blistered
Battered as bait
A conundrum
I simply cannot equate
Freedoms game teases
as I’m forced to wait
Times doorway
drastically dilates
A dispensable statistic

Disappears…. Too late ?

Wednesday, March 06, 2013

REACH OUT SPEAK OUT




This is the beginning

If you don't get out below could be the follow up picture.

REACH OUT
SPEAK OUT...NOW. !!!
.. TODAY !!!



 


...TOMORROWS ARE NEVER PROMISED




WOMENS AID











EMPTY HEADS


Empty heads

i live in a world filled with pain..yet splashed with colour . i live with a mind over ridden with hurt…..yet fit to burst with the need of understanding.
i live in a world surrounded by ignorance….that inflicts and destroys.
i yearn for peace….i long with whole heart to be held and loved….for who i am ….what i believe in….not my shell….but my inner soul and being.

Our minds
Can be open to numerous adaptations
Creations
’ Falsations ‘
Words that spill
Can fill
Empty heads
Of mindless souls
The imagination,
Is the largest place I have visited
And yes….
I WILL go back.

Tuesday, March 05, 2013

BRIEF REPOSE


brief repose

eyelids closed

tranquil thoughts

in solemn isolation

no external sounds

erratic heartbeat

eliminate

worlds cruel state

evade all fate

simulate

let unreality create

a consummated place

for a dying race

ostracise arrogance

greed and violence

breed fresh life

positive energy

dreams in brief repose

with eyelids closed

Monday, October 22, 2012

CRIES OF ANGUISH

CRIES OF ANGUISH
POUR
FROM THE DEPTHS OF MY HEART
TEARS OF SADNESS
FLOOD
FROM REDDENED EYES
HOPELESSNESS SURROUNDS ME
IN WORDS SPOKEN BY MEN
WHO DO NOT KNOW......... CANNOT COMPREHEND
THE INEVITABLE THREATS OF MANY.... FALL
IN THE CORNERS OF MY MIND
LIKE NEEDLES
THAT STAB TO REMIND
MY EXISTENCE IS NOW
GRAB WHAT I CAN
AS TIME MAY BE STOLEN
WHEN LEAST EXPECTED
I FEAR OF PHYSICAL AND MENTAL PAIN
 FOR MY CHILDREN
DEATH IS FATE
IF WHILE I AM HERE I CAN REACH ,TEACH,
WORDS THAT CAN BE UNDERSTOOD
LAWS TO CHANGE
STILL I AM UNSURE OF WHY I AM STILL LIVING
REASONS ON A HIGHER PLAIN
NOT EXPLAINED TO ME ......YET
I TRAVEL MY MIND IN SEARCH OF ANSWERS
A MAGIC WAND I NEED
IN ORDER TO SUCCEED
WHY IS IT.... EVIL HAS THE UPPER POWER
WHY CANNOT LOVE AND BEAUTY REIGN?
TIME SPENT HERE...IS SMALL
AND THE REAL TEST LIES AHEAD.
OF WHICH EVILWOULD FAIL........ SURELY?


I AM REPOSTING THIS AS A FIRE BURNS WITHIN ME TO HEAL NOT JUST MY PAINS ....BUT THE PAINS OF SOOOOOOO MANY . MUCH LOVE XXX


REACH OUT SPEAK OUT !!